i know...Slacker!!!

I know that I have not Written anything in a long time. It seems like I get so caught up in my own little world that I forget a lot of the little details that make me happy. I love doing this because it gives me a place to vent! Well I am still at Columbia State and I feel as though I will be there forever. I had to drop one of my online classes( Algebra) it was just way to intense. I was spending hours after hours just trying to catch up and once i thought i was caught up there was tons more. I plan on taking it next semester on campus! I am taking a Medical Terminology Class and i like it its just alot of memorization! Never knew a medical word had so many meanings. I am also taking Psychology and I have enjoyed it. It is amazing to learn about the processes of the brain and thinking styles and etc. In my computer app's class I am learning how to work a computer( its a required course ....) but its fun and easy, I like it. I am loving life for the most part some things could be better but that will have to take time and me wanting to chan ge the little things that drive me nuts. I spend my time working, sleeping, studying and hanging with Trena and friends. My friends are awesome i love them to death they are always there for me and i hope they can say the same about me. I havent seen my brother and Zary a whole lot its hard with them living in the boro and me in s'ville.....it takes effort on both parts and i havent been trying ive been a slacker. I am still trying to find equilibrium in my life and that is alot harder than i ever thought it would be. I want so much in one weeks time .....social life, work, school, gym, bike riding, softball, sleep, and church. It gets hectic and not everythnig can be squeezed into one week.....and that flusters me at times. This weekend i have had one of my moms friends in and she is so amazing Michele is so funny and intelligent she is a beautiful woman inside and out. She is sassy and yet reserved. She leaves today and I am going to miss her dearly I may have to take a flight up to PA to see her:)..... I miss freedom lol I miss being able to wake up when ever i want and do whatever come to mind for that day and that day only......But then i remember I live in reality and reality doesnt allow me to fly by the seat of my pants. Structure Structure Structure in time I will becomne an OCD robot who walk the same path and does the same thing everyday....but i am determined to find my way around it and continue to be spontanious!!!!!!! I will not give IN!!!!!